I Love You So Much

Its the middle of the night and Khai wakes up and calls for me. "Mama where are you? Its dark in here". I run into the bedroom and he's sitting up in bed, throws his arms around me and hugs me tight. I tell him "Mama's here and I"ll never leave you and if I do I'll always come back". I can feel his body relax onto mine as he puts his head on my shoulder. I get him situated back in bed and tell him I love him so much. He whispers "I love you so much too Mama" and I can see him smile in the light of the nightlight on the nightstand. I give him a kiss and he kisses me back and then he giggles. Then I giggle. Then he makes a quiet little pop noise out of his mouth, like a faint kiss. I make one back, he returns it. Back and forth we are doing this, quietly giggling and smiling. The whole time my hand is on his heart and I can feel its quick little beats and I start to tear up with happiness because it was one of those moments where I really feel just how much I love this little boy. And I smile and make my pop noise back at him. He makes one more pop and turns over and settles to sleep.